My statements related to terminating my SAoC relationship

[solidstate1991]

I have done two mistakes: I underestimated the scope of the 
project and overestimated my capabilities. This caused a chain 
reaction, which in turn made the first milestone unreachable.

At the same time, my sleep disorder became even worse. I started 
to sleep 10-12 hours a day while spending around 4-6 hours in bed 
just to trying to fall asleep, and since I had to do some 
housekeeping work it cut the planned 8 hours per day work down to 
4-6 at most. I have taped off all the status indicator LEDs on my 
electronics, I asked my brother and father to refrain from loud 
TV watching at night, all for nothing. Caffeine intake don't 
worsen my ability of sleep. I do get tired, but somehow still 
don't feel myself sleepy. Tried to tell my doctors, but they just 
told me to do the stuff I've already done plus to refrain from 
using computers as much as possible and instead look for a job 
that don't require them. However, thanks to I had to use a "desk" 
with no leg room, my spine is all busted now, barely able to 
manage to lift 20kg without screaming in agony.

I try to resume my work on improving mago, but on a much smaller 
scale and lower priority since I have to spend time finding a 
job, which is a very hard thing in this fascist country called 
Hungary, while also not supporting said fascist regime. While the 
state propaganda says there's a big shortage on workforce (to the 
point that supposedly humanitarians are being reeducated for Java 
developers), I also see a lot of people being rejected with bogus 
claims which tells me that there's something fishy, and hearing 
some controversies of political opponents' families suddenly 
losing their jobs says me that they're persecuting their 
political opponents at any means possible.

Losing the funds put me in danger of homelessness, since I 
haven't been able to pay my father for rent and food for years, 
not to mention my PC is on its deathbed with its dried up CPU VRM 
capacitors, and USB and LAN ports fried after a thunderstorm and 
our previous ISP being skeptical with overvoltage protection (we 
got a direct hit into the antenna, which blew up his equipment, 
and fried by router, the LAN port, several USB ports, a cheap 
membrane keyboard, and a Logitech mouse I just have repaired).

I think I'll take a few days of doing other stuff, since my 
sleeping disorder sabotaged my free time too and now I have to 
find a job, (preferably internship) to calm down a bit.