My statements related to terminating my SAoC relationship

[Basile.B]

On Monday, 15 October 2018 at 21:26:52 UTC, solidstate1991 wrote:
> I have done two mistakes: I underestimated the scope of the 
> project and overestimated my capabilities. This caused a chain 
> reaction, which in turn made the first milestone unreachable.
>
> At the same time, my sleep disorder became even worse. I 
> started to sleep 10-12 hours a day while spending around 4-6 
> hours in bed just to trying to fall asleep, and since I had to 
> do some housekeeping work it cut the planned 8 hours per day 
> work down to 4-6 at most. I have taped off all the status 
> indicator LEDs on my electronics, I asked my brother and father 
> to refrain from loud TV watching at night, all for nothing. 
> Caffeine intake don't worsen my ability of sleep. I do get 
> tired, but somehow still don't feel myself sleepy. Tried to 
> tell my doctors, but they just told me to do the stuff I've 
> already done plus to refrain from using computers as much as 
> possible and instead look for a job that don't require them. 
> However, thanks to I had to use a "desk" with no leg room, my 
> spine is all busted now, barely able to manage to lift 20kg 
> without screaming in agony.
>
> I try to resume my work on improving mago, but on a much 
> smaller scale and lower priority since I have to spend time 
> finding a job, which is a very hard thing in this fascist 
> country called Hungary, while also not supporting said fascist 
> regime. While the state propaganda says there's a big shortage 
> on workforce (to the point that supposedly humanitarians are 
> being reeducated for Java developers), I also see a lot of 
> people being rejected with bogus claims which tells me that 
> there's something fishy, and hearing some controversies of 
> political opponents' families suddenly losing their jobs says 
> me that they're persecuting their political opponents at any 
> means possible.
>
> Losing the funds put me in danger of homelessness, since I 
> haven't been able to pay my father for rent and food for years, 
> not to mention my PC is on its deathbed with its dried up CPU 
> VRM capacitors, and USB and LAN ports fried after a 
> thunderstorm and our previous ISP being skeptical with 
> overvoltage protection (we got a direct hit into the antenna, 
> which blew up his equipment, and fried by router, the LAN port, 
> several USB ports, a cheap membrane keyboard, and a Logitech 
> mouse I just have repaired).
>
> I think I'll take a few days of doing other stuff, since my 
> sleeping disorder sabotaged my free time too and now I have to 
> find a job, (preferably internship) to calm down a bit.

Try to complete some stuff. Even if it's not the main goal. 
**complete** is the important thing.

Best of lucks.